Boundaries –
Boundaries have been a confusing part of my journey, understanding them, practicing them, honoring them in others, knowing them in myself, having clarity of boundaries in myself. I have had three profound experiences lately in that, I have felt a clearly defined expression of energetic boundaries from others, with whom I could feel as theirs, and I was able to honor my own energy and move through without feeling disconnected or confused.
I was sitting with a friend at a park, and I was asking some deep questions, as I often do, I think it was a question like “What is love?” and I could feel her drifting off, maybe she was afraid of judgement – and I started to drift away too — I was being sucked into her energy field of disassociation, and I felt it. I took a deep breath and gave a smile, and reengaged in the conversation
My confusion is often – Am I manipulating them by wanting them to open? Is this a boundary. I don’t think it’s really about them, though most of my life I’ve put others needs before my own, and so, I realize it’s irrelevant if she wants to be opened or not energetically. I want to be open, so I can be selfish in wanting to open myself, and I believe everyone wants to be open? I think? Obviously, it’s still a practice. 😛
I am soooo new to this energy work, and it often takes A LOT to open others, and remain open in myself, it’s kind of like a game, I try to figure out what works, I usually start with eye contact, softening my eyes, and my facial muscles, if they can sustain looking at me, jeeez most people don’t even make eye contact. It’s like consent 101 people. The next I would try would be to open my body, inhale deeply, and exhale, softening all parts of my chest and shoulders, sometimes I try the opposite, sitting up straighter, elongating my spine I witness her and feel her openness and beauty– Thank you Chiropractor