I also really felt like I was too different, and my spiritual practice the way it ties into sexuality had too many blurred lines….Which FUCK is a huge shadow, -whimpers- I’ve always felt I need to be the “boundary” holder for connections…and I am only somewhat learning to trust myself energetically, -sigh- Walk the fuck away. Why do people feel the need to psychically molest me? Oh….that’s right, because I’m wearing yoga pants and a tight shirt. NO. Fuck off. So…. I find myself trying to connect with people that aren’t available, or that are able to connect and needing to stop the connection in some way. It seems like the only connections I have are with people whom aren’t “really” available, and I have to stop the connection in someway…or maybe I’m just afraid? Idk. It’s often just moments in time, and I can’t validate in some way or another and I am also afraid of rejection, so I would rather just leave it as a beautiful energetic exchange.